Hi!!!

I'm so bored right now...

I just got home...

I didn't really had a good birthday...

For one thing,

Dear is sick and I can't meet him again...

He promised me dinner at Secret Recipe...

And can't make it...

Haiz...

I was so looking forward to it..

Aniwae,

I received a number of birthday wishes and a few presents...

It never failed to make me smile...

Thanks you soo much guys...

Really appreciate it...

But

I got one present that really confuse me...

It's not the present it's just the person who given it...

You see,

There's this guy I know...

He's so much older than me...

I don't mean to be mean or anything...

But I don't like him...

I admire certain expects of him but that's that...

I don't like his attitude...

And he's a little annoying...

So,

He did told that he liked me and all...

He called me a few times a day...

To ask some lame info..

I got irritated by it...

But just to be nice, I entertain him...

I see his weakness and I just want to help...

Maybe I made a mistake and gave him some hope or something...

I don't mean anything by that...

He knows I'm attached and that it's serious...

I made it clear to him...

I can see that he's determine...

And then,

He gave me this b'day present in private...

There's a card attached to it....

There's alot of butterfly on it and u know how I love butterfly...

And it's obvious he made lot of effort on it although the card was bought and not hand made...

It says for a 'special friend'...

And he gave me a big block of Calbury chocolate....

One of my favourite too...

It must have cost him alot...

And I can't help it but smile...

I'm very grateful for it but I feel very guilty...

Cause the way I treat him is like !@#$...

I mean I try to get away from him as much as I can...

I don't really talked to him much and don't really listen when he talked...

He really care for me...

I can sense that...

So now,

I'm kind of in a dilemma...

Should I be nicer to him or leave things the way it is??

I don't want to give false hope to him...

I just hope that this won't cause any conflict between me and dear...

Dear trust me and I know I won't cheat on him...

I must be out of my mind if I want to be with him(not dear)

He's not my cup of tea and I can't see myself being with him...

I'll go crazy....

Seriously...

Haiz....

Why is this happening??

Why can't he like other girls???

Well,

I guess that's for now..

I got to go study...

And please comment if you can...

oh,

And what do you guys thing of this skin??

comment kay?

ciauooo...

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